Faltering

Ugh. I haven't been eating very well, and my stomach knows it. I ate many Tums this weekend... alternated between heartburn and nausea for most of it. I'm still 2 pounds under goal, despite the poor choices I've been making lately. My lowest point has been about 6 pounds under goal (131.2 pounds, dressed obviously).

On the bright side, I played through all of Super Metroid this weekend while at Anthony's house. We also went to see Watchmen again with Jay. I can't wait for the director's cut in the summer... I just can't get enough of that movie for some reason.

Time to sleep. Hopefully I'll have better stuff to talk about next time!

Here We Go Again

I'm not even sure why I'm trying the blog thing again. I'm starting to think that blogging tends to thrive only when one has more baggage than the lost and found at Logan Airport. I guess it's also a valid pastime if you are full of anger and enjoy oozing your seething rage all over the Internet.

I have blogged quite a bit over the years. That's part of why my inability to blog now is so confounding - I used to have no problem yammering on about nothing and leaving it out in plain view. I think it can be attributed to a combination of factors: 1) I'm getting older, 2) I don't have an awful lot to complain about and 3) I'm not awfully worried about what people think of me anymore.

It seems like whenever I have a thought that seems blog-worthy, I either forget it before I get the chance to write it or just plain don't know how I want to say it. I stare at the empty text box and give up after awhile. Even this short post has taken several days to compose, although I feel pressured to have some sort of really cool opening post.

I guess I could try to make the next post a little cooler...

Slowing down

I lost 2lbs this week, helping to offset the prior week's weirdness. I'm finding it harder and harder to behave - I've been trying to find ways to distract myself so that I don't resort to boredom eating. It's an old habit and I still catch myself doing it sometimes. Nerves trigger it too, but for the most part I've been pretty calm all around.

I didn't do so well with the exercise thing this week. Hoping to get back on track this week.

Speed bumps

Another short update... I gained 2.8 pounds as of my last weigh-in. I'm not really sure what went wrong. I did have a fairly rough weekend in Cape Cod, but didn't go over. I was also fine for the rest of the week. I guess I'm just going to be more careful and hope that this week is better.

On the bright side, I've started exercising (well, just walking for now). I just need to make sure I remain consistent. I'm also interested in taking up yoga, but I haven't really initiated that yet. I know where I want to go, I just have to make it happen.

Quick update

Last weigh-in was 137lbs. That makes the tally exactly 60 at this point. :o

One year later...

Yesterday marked an entire year since the whole eating habit change thing. I feel infinitely better than I did a year ago, that's for sure. It's also becoming more difficult to remain disciplined. The final challenge for me is trying to become motivated enough to exercise - but after all this time I still haven't gotten around to it.

I don't know if it's because I've gotten so much stuff done in the past year - graduating, promotion at work, dealing with some internal demons, the eating thing (obviously), and now I'm working on getting a new car really soon. It's strange - I've accomplished more in the past year than I have in the 9 years before it. I now feel weird when I'm not working hard to achieve something. I used to spend the majority of my time trying to do as little as possible. I somehow managed to do a complete 180 - I hope I can keep it up.

On the plateau

At last weigh-in, I was exactly the same as the week before (although at least that week I had lost a pound)... currently hovering at 138.6lbs. The past few weeks have become increasingly difficult to manage. I can only eat 19 points a day because I still haven't found a form of exercise that I enjoy doing. It's been affecting my energy level - I am in a constant state of fatigue as of late. Fortunately, my aunt will be letting me use her treadmill soon. Hopefully I'll be able to stick to it and start waking up again.